The Art of Self-Discovery
The Art of Self-Discovery
|Posted on August 2, 2018 at 10:03 PM||comments (92)|
I am back with a vengeance. Bigger, better and wiser. I spent the last 5 years in a cult. Not really but almost by being in an abusive relationship that set me back. I had to cancel my subscription to my website, for at the time I didn't have the finances to make the monthly payment. It is almost shameful to be upfront and honest of how I fell back into the matrix by being in a toxic relationship for so long. As you can see if you followed my other blogs, I have so much spiritual wisdom and insight yet I didn't take heed of my own inner guide that was writing to me in my journal books! It was telling me to leave the relationship, make changes, change my thoughts, on and on. I turned my back on my own best friend.......me! My partner became the center of attention and my best friend over myself. I allowed myself to be emotionally, spiritually, physically and financially abused by him.. It was hard to pull myself up out of the negative vortex I was in. Yet I did it and here I am back to myself. In all honesty, the positive comments I was getting from my blog helped me to find my way back Home, back to myself, back to my soul, back to writing. Thank you everyone! You held the sacred space for my soul to return, to remember who I am and my life's purpose to share spiritual wisdom and emotional values that welcomes us to the new earth.
Wow, what a journey. It felt like I was in prison for 5 years. I stopped painting, writing and overall just stopped being me.....a happy, positive, creative free spirit who wants to share spiritual wisdom and creative inspiration. Being an empath, I embodied my ex partner's suppressed negative feelings. Since our planet is more supportive of the material world over the spiritual world, it is so damn easy to let the bastards get you down. I allowed someone else's emotional neediness and money take precedence over my spiritual and emotional values. Why? Because I was looking to be loved and to be accepted. I didn't feel it within myself for I came from a very dysfunctional family. I turned to a partner to feed me emotionally with love and appreciation in order to fill the void within. He turned to money thinking that would fill his void within. But really in the end, no one can fill that void but oneself. We were a perfect match in a way. Both co-dependent on each other to fill one another up. I forgave him for not knowing and I mostly forgave myself for not knowing any better as well. As you can see a person can have all the spiritual wisdom and intelligence in the world but if they are not emotionally healthy or in love with self by marrying the female and male energies within, the spiritual intelligence of the mind cannot save the soul. The ego or mind will look outside and never truly be satisfied. In this situation, the only way out is in! Seriously! It requires a community of like minded people to stay strong, to share and to keep the soul alive. I was a zombie. Going through the motions and not feeling my heart of hearts, the inner child within that wanted to express, play and find the joy in life. Life is about feeling good! We are here to reprogram our minds to have an easy, abundant life that is full of joy, passion, love, peace, health and abundance. This life I describe has to start within first. My blogs are here to take you to that world within through the art and writing.
That is where I am at now. Simplifying my life, taking some down time for myself and getting back to what makes me feel good! For the last 5 years while being in a dysfunctional relationship, I was very busy running around. Staying busy was a distraction from getting still to feel, to go within and to face the truth. I became depressed when I got still for I shoved down my anger and shame. I was angry for supporting others needs over my own. I didn't know how to say no because I didn't embrace my male energy within which represented inner strength. I was shameful to feel victimized in a relationship. Once I set time out for myself and said no to others vying for my attention, I was able to relax and delve more deeply into myself. It is a hard place to be to sit with one's feelings, especially feelings of loneliness for it seems one would be stuck in that negative feeling for a long time. It taught me to accept my feelings, to be there for myself and to not judge myself in feeling shame around the feeling. I grew up in a home whereby there was shame around feelings and thereby feelings were suppressed. The only way I learnt to express my feelings was through painting and writing. So here I am transforming all negative feelings whether anger, shame and loneliness into a positive, creative outlet of writing.
I read an excerpt from a book a while back and it said:
"If something happens that you feel is bad, remember that it happened to move you forward. Your job is to find the positive in the negative, or at least to TRUST that there is a positive there, even if you can't see it at the moment." Another saying I read from a book Think and Grow Rich is that every adversity has the seed within it an equal or greater blessing or gift. It is so important to change our way of thinking in this new world. Not only are we here to awaken the feminine within that has been suppressed for over 4,000 years, we are here to change our perspective on how we view adversities in life. The truth is the adversity is there to stir up the gift of God within.
I realize now that I needed that 5 years of hell before I could enter the Promised Land lol. The Promised Land of self-love, self-respect and self-confidence. I was so angry at my ex boyfriend and at myself for betraying my intuition. My inner voice was screaming at me to end the relationship, within days of meeting each other and every other day while being in a relationship.
When my ex boyfriend claimed he could make more money than me in business, like I wasn't smart enough or ambitious enough, I felt angry that I was treated like an inferior, so I then channeled my anger into creativity by becoming an interior decorator. It was a passion for me but also a struggle because I worked all the time. My life wasn't in balance. I over gave to others and let my energy be drained. Through the grace of God I was able to build a very successful business to now take time out to write, paint and be an energy healer. I still have some business commitments but I am in the process of simplifying my life to let that old world go. Prior to arriving to this turning point, I was stressed out and on burn out. That was when I decided to take a break from my business, a break from the outer world and to learn to relax to go within. I changed my old self. I saw myself setting boundaries with others in regards to my own needs, by connecting with my male energy within. I didn't want a relationship with anyone but myself. I needed to heal 18 years of abusive relationships that I was involved in. Big sigh. Now is my time to be, to just relax, to go within and to be at peace with myself. This time it is my calling, calling me to be a leader of consciousness and to enter the New Earth. A calling to be a way shower to a new way of thinking and being that feels so damn good!
So in the end, all is good when I decided to see the gift in the 5 years of being in a toxic relationship. The anger and rage became my best friends to channel my energy creatively, to kick of negative people, to set boundaries and to enter the new world within that manifests as a new earth.
Until next time......stay well. I love you all! Put your lights on and go within!
P.S. Stay tuned for my next blog on creating prosperity! I have a great story to share on how the intuition will guide you to answer your prayers.
|Posted on August 23, 2012 at 11:22 AM||comments (145)|
I have noticed that the hardest thing in life is to live an easy life! With this in mind, I created a poem below called E-SEA LIVING. I hope you enjoy it!
The art of E-SEA LIVING
Life is about e-sea living.
God loves you and God is giving.
Do you want to feel good? Then this is where you start.
Get out of your head and into your heart.
If you want to heal the life your are living.
Be gentle with yourself and be forgiving.
Let go of guilt, anger or sadness.
Life is too short for drama or madness.
Allow your feelings a positive way out.
Paint, sing, laugh, let go of self-doubt.
Give yourself time to play.
Do what feels good today!
To have inner peace is to live in the now.
Surrender, forgive, you know how.
Be still and reflect on who you are.
See your goodness and you will go far.
Stop self-criticism, say to the inner critic, "no more"!
Let the abandoned inner child out. Open the door.
Talk to your fears for they are not real.
Allow them to go fish'n or watch Let's Make a Deal.
Fears comes from the child within.
Cradle the child in love, that's where you begin.
Your life is joyfully blessed. Keep a positive attitude.
Be thankful for what you have. Stay in gratitude.
You are not your past, so let go of the old story.
Write a new script, you are the star, see your face in glory!
Be gentle and compassionate, look within.
See the good in every experience. You are here to win!
God is love, God is goodness, God is in you.
You are your own best friend, support your feelings, be true.
You have been created for a special reason.
Be true to your passion and change with the season.
All your answers are inside.
Ask, act! God is at your side.
God supports you to live your dreams.
Celebrate your gifts. Buy an ice-cream!
Life is a game. The prerequisite is to have fun.
Play like a child, then you have won.
Sit by the sea and watch the birds soar.
Be in the moment and hear the waves roar.
Smell the salt in the air.
While the wind dances through your hair.
Let your feet play in the sand.
God's love for you is at hand.
You deserve pleasure! Play, create a silly rhyme.
Stop and smell the flowers, this is your time!
Take time out to do nothing, to just be.
This is the art of living, it's that e-sea!
By Sheri Salin
PARADISE IN BLUE
Acrylic on canvas, 36 x 48
|Posted on March 13, 2012 at 3:31 PM||comments (78)|
(Acrylic on canvas by Sheri Salin)
Yesterday while I was walking in the park, I started to question my life and ask myself if I am living the life I want and truly deserve. Some feelings of anger surfaced for I felt stuck in many ways. My first response in the past would have been to judge the feeling of anger as bad and then suppress it or project it outwardly onto someone else, the government or whatever. This feeling of anger (fear) is at the root of war. The anger and war that others play out is a reflection of the war that is going on within themselves. They don't feel at peace within so they act it out onto others. The painting shows a reflection which symbolizes our lives. The inner reality gets reflected back to us by our outer world. If we feel peace and love within, our outer world or surroundings will reflect that.
The anger is never about someone, the government, the economy or religion. Anger is only a feeling that is potential energy. If it is used constructively and creatively it can be a powerful force to bring about positive change through taking inspired action. It can bring lightness to where there was darkness. I decided to feel into my anger and to use it as fuel, as energy to travel deeper within myself for answers. I decided to transform this energy creatively through painting, by allowing the painting to bring guidance and answers. My inpsired action was to write this blog, to share with others a journey towards evolving into the spiritual beings that we are.
I paint intuitively and never know what message God/Goddess/Spirit/Higher Power/Universe has in store for me. For me, art is a you-niversal language of God/Goddess that I later translate into English. Once I finished the painting, I thought it looked like an impressionist painting of a sunset landscape. That was yesterday's perspective, today was something different. When I was able to get more relaxed, I looked into the painting. This required me to close my outer eyes in order to have inner sight. I became like an innocent child of wonder and my heart opened up to a deeper truth, a secret from God. I saw the face of a woman in the middle of the painting, a face I never intentionally painted! The divinely guided painting was speaking to me of our Creator, our Mother Earth. We came from Her, both males and females embody this feminine energy within.
We are all here for a reason, to anchor in the Divine Feminine at this time on our planet. Our patriarchal world has been off balance for way too long and the only way to bring peace, harmony, joy and fun into our lives is by uniting the love of the Divine Feminine with the Divine Masculine. We are created through the balance of both these energies, a cosmic orgasm!
The Divine Feminine is in you. She represents feelings, love, nurturance, creativity, spirituality, receptivity, stillness and intuition. Don't you deserve to live a life that is peaceful, fun, creative and magical? We are all Divine children with greatness and goodness within to live out our wildest dreams, to feel good in life. As a Divne child, which field are you playing in, the field of fear or the field of dreams? Where do you give your attention and energy to, to the light or to the darkness?
This painting, Our Creator, Our Mother, Our Earth symbolizes the colorful, magical, peaceful, abundant world we all have within us. This inner spiritual world surpasses all religions for it is a new religion of human evolution. This new religiion is SELF-LOVE. It can only be felt through the heART of truth, the love within. Feeling into the painting will bring this essence to you along with opening your heart to receive the love that the Divine Feminine has for you, bringing both your energies into balance. Rebirth into your authentic self! Feel the joy, magic and beauty that our Mother Earth wants to give you. Stay in gratitude.
|Posted on February 22, 2012 at 3:21 PM||comments (141)|
THE ART OF AWAKENING
i've been over due in writing in my blog. I am really opening up to painting more and writing more about the deeper esseence of the painting. I was kind of taking the painting for face value and got caught up in mass consciousness that artwork is only there to be a decorative item that hangs on the wall. My art conveys a deeper message, a deeper truth about the art of self-discovery. It is an expression of the inner child connecting to God-Goddess, the love within. This love has no attachment outside itself to a person, thing or situation. It is unencumbered pure love at it's very core.
I painted MAGICAL POPPIES yesterday with so much exuberance, fun and joy while listening to some great music! What a gift to give to oneself..........to feel good and not to feel guilty for feeling good!
I always paint intuitively allowing myself to be a vessel for Spirit to express through me. Once Magical Poppies as shown below was completed, I relaxed into the painting and allowed Spirit to speak to me through the images that conveyed symbolism and deeper meaning. The painting reminded me of a scene from The Wizard of Oz whereby Dorothy and her friends run into the poppy field with such joy and excitement. They knew it was only a matter of time before reaching Emerald City. As the plot turns, the wicked witch cast a spell so that Dorothy and her friends would fall asleep. The sleep represents mass consciousness being asleep to feelings, asleep to one's potential in life. How can someone know their potential without really knowing who they are? The good witch from the north waves her wand over the poppy field to create snow. In the painting Magical Poppies, the white flecks that were placed on the painting intuitively represents snow, a cleansing, a renewal, new beginnings, an awakening to one's potential. Get still, listen within and follow your heart! You have special gifts and talents to share.
MAGICAL POPPIES, Acrylic on 4 canvases, 64" x 20"
|Posted on November 6, 2011 at 2:41 AM||comments (56)|
THE ART OF OPENING THE INNER EYES
Wow, it's been a while since I have posted a blog and I have missed writing!
I was in Canada for 3 weeks visiting family and friends. It was nice to go back and get new perspectives on self, life and others. Stepping out of my environment helped me to see things differently, especially old patterns that were being played out with family and friends that no longer served my evolved self. I felt empowered to see how far I came and how much more I need to go. This journey in life for me is all about becoming my best self, to leave this world a better place knowing that I have been a gracious guest on this planet earth.
When I got back from my trip, I found myself feeling a little lost, a little outside myself after being immersed in everyone else's energies and lifestyle. The pace is so much faster in a metropolitan city, traffic galore, go, go, go, do, do, do! I'm so used to the pace here on the west coast of Florida which is slow mo, being in the moment. I used to have that frantic pace in life years ago when I was an entrepreneur, manufacturing, designing, wholesaling and owning retail stores. I loved what I did, but at the same time I didn't love myself. Becoming the workaholic was a great escape from going within and feeling things I didn't want to feel. Not sure what I was afraid of now that I look back. Perhaps I had a fear of the darkness, some kind of bogey man lurking within. Then again, who taught us while growing up that there is another world, another important world that exists within ourselves that is colorful and fun?
So, with this said, I found myself wrapped up in mass consciousness, pulled outside myself making the outer world my focus. This caused me to feel off balance, not inside myself and not centered. It took me almost a week to get back home, the place within. I had to click my shoes a couple of times....and chant there's no place like home lol. I had a hard time going within until I felt angry and frustrated because my needs weren't being met. In some ways I had abandoned myself by immersing myself in everyone else's world and drama. It was hard to own the anger but once I did, I allowed myself to channel the anger constructively and creatively by getting still, closing my outer eyes so that I could open my inner eyes. It was a time of solitude, retreat, a moon time. A time of reflection, a time of being in the feminine energy of myself to receive answers and guidance from Spirit within.
This painting I have included titled DREAM ANGEL was divinely guided while I was in this space of solitude. Painting has always been a form of meditation and play, all one in the same. At first I threw white paint on the canvas, thinking that I was going to paint a commissioned piece for a customer. The paint thrown at random on the canvas took on a painting in itself. I saw wings of an angel and that symbolism lead to the angel, Dream Angel. The angel came as a messenger to remind me to close my outer eyes in order to open my inner eyes. I was feeling heaviness and darkness around me, other people's fears, so all the more I needed to feel the light within. The anger became potential energy, almost like fuel that pushed me to go deep within, to shut out the outer world. When you think about it, all feelings are just potential energy wanting to be felt and used constructively to serve one's good.
DREAM ANGEL is here to remind us to stop and go within when there is darkness or feelings of fear. I rarely paint artwork that is black and white but the black in the painting represents coming out of darkness and getting into the void. The black also symbolizes the death of the old self and rebirthing into more of my Goddess-Self. Yet, why do most of us want to avoid the void? Perhaps it's because we don't know that it exists and never felt it, so there is a fear of the unknown? You tell me. In the past, whenever I felt fear or darkness I would want to run, run from myself and keep busy. Now, I run to go within myself. The lyrics in one of Bono's songs from U2 is "she is running to stand still." Now I know what he means by this profound lyric.
How can one dream if one is asleep? What I mean is to dream while being awake, awake consciously, being at one with oneself by going within and feeling into one's spirit. I read The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron and one affirmation I kept affirming was, "all my dreams come from God and God has the power to accomplish them." Writing this affirmation gave me strength and courage to not only dream but to live the life I want and deserve!
Dream and believe to conceive! May all your dreams and desires come easy and in a fun way!
Acrylic on canvas by Sheri Salin
|Posted on August 31, 2011 at 6:01 PM||comments (39)|
THE ART OF RECEIVING
I love art, the art of self-discovery and the art of living as spiritual beings! As part of my last blog on The Art of Self-Discovery, I was inspired to share this article written by a friend, Brooke, a metaphysical store owner, Serenity Now in Palm Harbor, Florida. She carries prints of my artwork in her store. Her personal story is called The Art of Receiving:
I (Brooke) was asked by the staff to keep the theme of “the art of receiving” for the month of September. There were so many stories and “aha!” moments shared with us. I found myself sharing in the joy of the amazing things that had happened. I think we have been taught, for so long, to look to outside circumstances for our fulfillment, that we forget that we have a part to play in it all, by giving permission to receive our good.
I remembered a story on the topic of the art of receiving. It started on a very ordinary afternoon when one of our most amazing staff came to me and said that, with great regret, she had to resign. She had been given an opportunity to take part in a study of young athletes that were susceptible to sudden cardiac arrest. The study was going to see if an EKG could give an early detection. Our Joy, with her background in nursing, was ideal for this study.
I found myself delighted for Joy. However, I felt devastated for myself and the store. For years she had been like a sister, a right arm, a teacher for me. My dilemma was how do you even begin to replace someone like that? Truly, I thought it was impossible. I spent the rest of the day in doubt and fear. That night I took several years-worth of job applications home with me.
It was now 4:30 in the morning, and I had not slept at all. All of a sudden a light bulb went off in my head. There is an Archangel named Chamuel. He will help us find things. I just simply asked him, “Can you help me find someone to work in the store?” Within a nanosecond I heard one word, (not audible) “Julie”. I was also given a picture of her beautiful face.
Julie had been a customer in the store, who would come in 4 or 5 times a year, always in a super hurry. I did not know much about her personal life, but her angelic energy would fill the store every time she came in.
So the minute I was willing to receive the answer, it was given to me instantly! I wanted to call her right then and there to see if she was available to work, but I knew I had to wait for a reasonable hour to make the call. Finally, around 9 o’clock, I placed the call. As it turned out, she was available. I asked her if she could start that very day and she said yes!
There was a part of the story that I did not know at the time, but Julie shared it with me months later. About the time I called her, she had been through some major life changes. She was needing to find a job, but first and foremost, she was remodeling two homes that needed to be sold immediately. She really had no time to go for job interviews, and was praying for God to see if the perfect job could just call her up, out of the blue, and hire her, which is exactly what happened!
This point in the story brings me to a significant part of the art of receiving, that we don’t often hear about: the Law of Reciprocity. To me it means that whatever we are looking for is looking for us! For example, you single ladies that are looking for a partner, not only is he out there, but he’s looking for you!
This story gets even better. After a little while, when the study was over, our Joy came back to us. So now I get to be with Joy and Julie on a daily basis. (It’s sort of like double scoops of ice cream!) So a situation which I perceived as a loss, turned out to be an opportunity. But, I did have to be willing to receive.
The way we live our lives is like an art , taking a blank canvas and creating the reality we want through our thoughts, beliefs and feelings knowing that the canvas can be repainted over again if we don't like the reality or image we created.
The art of receiving does require the ability to surrender, to let go and let God. It is a trust in ourselves and the Universe. Most of us are so used to "doing" a masculine energy instead of balancing it with "being" or "receiving", a feminine energy. We all have both masculine and feminine energies within us. When we allow ourselves to get still and go within, to listen to our intuition (feminine energy) and then take inspired action on it (masculine energy), we create balance and harmony in our lives. I created a painting called LOVE & HARMONY that reflects this balance of both energies.
LOVE & HARMONY
Acrylic on 4 canvases, 32" x 40"
by Sheri Salin
'What so ever things ye ask for when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them." Jesus
The other important part of this equation is gratitude! To be as thankful for what you pray for all the time, as you expect to be when it has taken form. Faith is being thankful to God~Goddess for things which as yet one owns only in imagination. There has to be a balance of joy and graititude. Feel the joy before receiving the manifestation and at the same time give love and thanks back to God~Goddess for it before you receive it. There has to be faith and a balance of giving and receiving, masculine and feminine energies.
|Posted on August 30, 2011 at 5:47 PM||comments (53)|
Acrylic on canvas, 60 x 42
by Sheri Salin
Well, here's my first blog! I wonder who is going to find it, yet alone read it? I'm excited yet a little reserved in expressing thoughts and feelings in words. As an intuitive artist I am so used to expressing myself on canvas. Yet, I must admit that there were paintings that were created in my past that I didn't dare share with others, only my best friend. She thought the painting was so expressive of my feelings and all the more I suppressed myself in sharing it publicly. I soon came to realize that I was feeling shame and fear of my actual feelings. No wonder I was so quiet and shy as a child. I feared my feelings and feared myself. At a young age of 5, I remember asking myself "who am I". How could I know who I am without feeling into my feelings and letting them take me to a deeper place within, a place that I never knew existed!
Most of my life I was quiet, listening to others over my own quiet voice within, a voice within that never had a chance to be heard. I felt stuck in a body with no expression, no life, until one day I went through hell, a crisis in my life. By going through hell, I found heaven! The hell I was going through needed an outlet to express, to feel, so I turned to painting. The painting brought me to heaven, a place within myself, a whole new world of unconquered territory, ready to be claimed. The actual claim was claiming my authentic self, my God-self that was full of peace, wisdom, love and joy. I loved this new inner world for I found it to be very colorful and more important than the outer world. The inner world manifested outwardly as paintings and poetry, full of joy, healing, magic and mystery. I couldn't get enough of it and I knew that this challenge that I experienced in my life came to serve me, it was a blessing for I found my life's purpose and passion, being in the business to express my God-self.
Pablo Picasso once said that his art is like a diary. I must admit that I saw my art as a diary as well, reflecting back to where I was in life, how I was feeling as well as the art being prophetic. My paintings were the language of my soul, sharing with me glimpses of myself and wisdom that sometimes came at a later time in life. Through painting, I began to understand that the soul doesn't know time or space. It showed me that the soul is whole and complete, the way we were all born. I sometimes didn't understand a painting until many years later when my level of consciousness had risen. It was exciting to measure my spiritual growth through the artwork. Otherwise it is hard to see growth for it is not a tangible thing. The painting puts the intangible (feelings) into the tangible.
The painting I want to share is called Mystic Mountain. It is my most recent painting and this painting marked a special phase of my life. It conveyed how I was allowing myself to surrender more to the process of painting, surrendering to trusting life and trusting myself. In the past I would have defined it more as a way to overcompensate for not feeling defined or visible in life. I was able to just let it be, to accept it for it's raw beauty by not overworking it. When is enough? When am I enough? There is such a correlation to painting and self-discovery. Painting provides an outer journey of joy and magic. Once the painting is complete, it then provides an inner journey to self-discovery that brings more peace and compassion. What is my soul wanting me to know? What images, colors or symbols are being reflected back for me to see?
After I did the painting Mystic Mountain as shown above, the first image that I saw at the top right side of the painting looked like a layer being peeled back from the mountain. Beneath the layer is a blue, ancient face of a woman.
This symbol could mean so many different things to different people, depending on where they are in life. The artwork brings out the subconscious into consciousness to reflect back to oneself. The meaning behind the layer being stripped away represented stripping away layers of false beliefs about myself and to stop hiding who I am. The layers and old beliefs kept me separated from the Divine and from my soul. I saw that I needed to expose myself more......in a creative way by sharing who I am. To not fear rejection or abandonment but rather to celebrate expressing aspects of myself and the Divine within. It gives others permission to then do the same. This symbol also conveyed aspects of my personal truth of the Goddess within wanting to be expressed through a book I wrote, that I put on the back burner for over ten years. There is light in the center of the painting and it was a matter of letting more light into my life by being lighter and not taking myself or life so damn seriously! I've held myself back so much in life and now I just want to be me. Allow myself the freedom to express, to feel, to be alive, to say who gives a damn, I am that I am!
May the power of the Creator be with you, always in all ways.
Until the next painting...........ciao.......stay groovy! Remember, life is short, live your dreams, get creative!
Mystic Mountain is availabe for purchase below. Thank you!